Nokia Ngage

The N-Gage is looking up to be a pretty serious gaming system. I mean theyre going to release frigging elder scrolls on it . Wish I had some money . Meanwhile Ill Have to get a Diskman . I really need one . Especially before Gangtok. Dont think itd happen though . Might have if i hadnt bought these games . But then these are must have titles .

Music piracy

Music piracy, the biggest assett for music listeners these days ?? Many people see music piracy as a boon , and even I did, bying MP3 cds for 50 bucks and getting 100 songs . Great right . Not so. I believe music piracy hurts the consumer just as much . First of all truly it makes the price of Legal cds and cassettes soar upwards . But most of all , when you get 100 songs in one cd it kind of cheapens it . I mean I personally realized that I used to listen to music a lot more and a lot more deeply before I started bying MP3 cds. I mean I recently bought a Cliff cd and i listened to it a lot more intently cause i payed 200 bucks for it . I dont know , maybe the logic is wierd, but piracy results in a loss of love or involvement with music , I feel .

Booooringgg

God , mine has to be the most uninteresting blog in the blogger world . Sometimes Im amazed at how little theres going on in my life . The family crisis in the grandparents front seems to be receding a little .And the thing thats bugging me most these days is JB's disappearence . I mean hes completely disappeared off my radar . There seems to be no way to track him down . I wish it wasnt so abrupt , its hard to lose a good friend , but i mean what could i do . He was so overly secretive about himself , its not possible . I still miss him a lot , but you can only do so much without any response

Busy time

Well its been a busy time for me the last few days , with my parents here and finishing prince of persia , sands of time , and trying like hell to do my projects although not really getting anything done . I really have to have to get it done and fast . Or my gangtok visit is going kaput . And I have got to start taking a good hard look at my priorities with my friends . thats my problem , I just dont know when to back off . I dont know where that line is between "friend who gives you space" and "friend who doesnt give a damn" and ive always been afraid of crossing it . Damn , i wish it wasnt such a tightrope . One little mistake and SPLAT!!! , theyre scraping pieces of your friendship from the pavement and bagging the pieces for the morgue .

Projects

Went to see the project guide today , not very impressed . Aparently theyll do everything , ill just have to sign on the front page and thats it . So much for a "live project". Anyway parents coming over today . So very busy .

Pujas

I attended a viswakarma puja today . Thing is , since i dont believe in any purticular god ,am i a hypocrite attending them and having fun ? I dont know . To me god , if thats the name i have to give the force thats in the universe , is in everything . Its in good food , beautiful music , love , hate , tears , smiles , everything . So its hard to give it a face and a name . And to think theres a legion of gods , who look after a sector of life , its impossible for me . Its too much like a capitalystic board of directors . God isnt human . He doesnt have feelings . He just creates . He is shapeless formless . He has no right and no wrong . He has created love and hate , pain and pleasure, mind and body . He doesnt make judgements , rather he creates minds that can make judgments . God is nature, nature is God .

Pricks

Some people are pricks by nature , its born in them . But what is it about being a government employee that brings out all the prickness to the forefront ?? I mean seriously , is it the long hours, oh no wait , they dont work long hours . Is it the poor salary ?????....... not so , cos theyre not poorly paid . Let me guess , they are pricks because they can afford to be so , because they dont give a damn about what happens to whom , cos they know no one can touch a hair on their stupid balding head . Ok the fact of the matter is , I went to my colege offices today . to get my centre changed . first of all the guy wouldnt even listen to what i had to say . Then when i told him that i was sent to him , he grudgingly heard me and at once started telling me i was wrong . when i pointed it out to him that i wasnt and that i was just doing what my faculty told me to do he grudgingly did his JOB , what hes paid to do and then he told me in the rudest voice "hoe geche , ebar ekhan theke jan to!!"

Irritations

Sometimes people really piss me off , but somethings piss me off are just too damn justified . I have a friend , i dont name names but hes like a great guy , very helpful, understanding , and everything else , except that he has abso-fucking-lutely NO sense of responsibility . Hes not like the people who DONT take responsibility , hes one of those who will be the first one to take it and then cheerfully forget about it . He calls up and tells me he'll be coming over to do our project work at 2 in the afternoon today . And then finally at five thirty yes FIVE THIRTY he fucking calls me up and says "oh hi , look im sorry but you know friends had come over , so i couldnt leave the house" and this isnt a one shot deal . he does that all the time . And as much as it irritates me , it will hurt him in the long run much much more . Anyway on happier news I urge anyone who can to play Prince of Persia, the sands of time .. Glorious game , absolutely wonderful. And got my first look at doom 3 , runs in my machine with everything turned down , but still enough atmosphere to make me scream and gasp every 3 minutes .

Google Crazy

Amal has gone google crazy as far as i can tell , at its not just him, its like the entire planet is a google nut . At least the internet using part of it . And who can blame them , truly , google is one of the fantastic perks of using the internet . I shudder to think what searches would be without google . And truly , the fastest search engine out there by a long long way . I dont remember when i last used another search engine . Anyway back to matters more domestic , I called up IGNOU to inquire why my name wasnt in the list , Robida told tme to meet him , i do that in the pouring rain and does he sort the matter out ?? N bloody ooooooooo . He tells me I have to send an application to Bikash Bhavan . Why he couldnt tell me that over the phone i will never know . Oh and Im getting creamed in the team qualifiers in UT . The semifinal match ive lost twice , its like my teammates are all implanted with jackass AI and the opponents have the speed and agility of Nadia Komanichi on speed .

UT2004

The heading doesnt mean a damn thing other than the fact that i loaded it up and played it . Freakin' rocks . And since even my old 64 mb graphics card with 256 mb of ram can crunch out medium details at 1024 X 768 resolution with decent framerate , then yaaayyyy . Anyway thats all the big news there is . Got my monitor back , what a relief to play for 2-3 hours without the screen going all blue . Anyway its wierd how small things make you feel a lot better . now that my monitor is back i feel like this huge huge weight is off my chest . Sometimes i just want a trouble free life thats all , but that isnt entirely possible is it , so one must feel relief at the small things . I belief that a person's happiness is much more dependant on himself than anything else . You can choose to be happy at the small things because large big huge good news comes along very rarely , so if thats what takes to make you happy , then you would spend the rest of your life just complaining

Games

Finally got my hands on UT 2k4 , installed it on tony's machine , as i knew great great game . Cant wait for my monitor to get back so i can waste valuable hours shooting digital characters .Pigged out at the rollick's shoppe today been ages since i went there and from what i ate it seemed like that too . Anyway I thought id go get the price for my video card but apparently my money is coming soon so ill go there directly and buy it . Just cant wait to get my hands on it . Games have enveloped my life now and it seems quite incomplete without them . Even many of my friendships are entirely based on gaming . I dont know why , maybe its the only form of entertainment that makes you such a part of the whole process , unlike television , you are actually in there , doing things , being part of the story . Its a very unique feelings . And its better to depend on things for your happiness , rather than people , they let you down a lot less.

First post

My first post , god knows why im doing this , but hey its good to let things out once in a while . Totally boring day today , and with my monitor gone for repairs , i might as well have been in a bloody coma . Anyway at least RAW is on tv tonight with a shitload of those sitcoms i like to watch when i should be studying . At least amal has a bloody job he can spend all day at .Wish he had time to give me UT i really loved that game from what little ive played of it , finally a multiplayer game thatll be better than quake 3 (i hope )